The only way to make it through all of this at such a young age, though, was to believe in something so much bigger than me. And when I saw one, I thought of my aunt and cousins, and how they were watching over me. I also started to look for dream catchers wherever I went. I insisted I needed one to help the bad dreams go away, and my mom was happy to buy it and hang it up. I had terrifying dreams almost every night, and one day when I was at a little festival at school, I found out what a dream catcher was. We also called on the help of dream catchers. I was no longer living in the innocence of an untouched childhood. Like I said, I didn't know the whole story with all the details until years later, but coming that close to something so awful, so terrifying-it was a turning point for me. When my mom told us that somebody had come into their house and 'hurt them,' it terrified me in the deepest parts of my heart. And the clearer and clearer the story became, the more horrifying it was. I remained silent and blocked it out for quite a few years, but I eventually found the strength to google the case. Even though it scared me, I wanted to know more. And clearly, they wanted us to forget about it, too.īut I couldn't forget. We occasionally saw flashes of the story come up on the news when the investigation was going on, and later when the trial was going on, but my parents always changed the channel. The murder of a mom and two young children, in their own home, in a quiet small town, was big news in Alabama. And it would take years for me to get the whole story, once I was old enough to look it all up for myself on the Internet. It would take months after that to put the pieces together, since nobody wanted to talk about it. It would take a few days for me to understand that Aunt LeeLee and Robin and Trent had been murdered. 'I didn't know the whole story with all the details until years later, but coming that close to something so awful, so terrifying-it was a turning point for me.' 'When my mom told us that somebody had come into their house and ‘hurt them,' it terrified me in the deepest parts of my heart,' Hannah writes.

In E! News' exclusive excerpt of God Bless This Mess, Hannah recalled a moment in her childhood that she won't soon forget when, at just six years old, she was getting ready to perform in a recital when her father suddenly announced that he would be unable to make it.Īs she would learn, her aunt and cousins-ages 6 and 4-were murdered in their home. While headlines have already proven that there is plenty of tea to spill (hello Peter Weber surprise hookup), there is also much more than what meets the eye. 23, fans were hoping to receive brand-new details about her experience in Bachelor Nation. When the Bachelorette star first announced her book, God Bless This Mess, would be released on Nov. Hannah Brown's life is much more than rose ceremonies and ballroom dancing.

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